Sunday, October 31, 2010

Lazy Lass!!

The same old problem…sigh!!!


You guys must be thinking what made D not write anything for such a loooong looong time… guess what, the same question I ask myself everyday.


Not that Im short of words… there is always something happening around me or “with me” which I can easily pen down… Bored??? Not at all… Hectic work schedule??? Ahan, its smooth so that can’t be the reason for my disappearance… personal life???… naaaaah…


Well….. Laziness it is…sheer laziness…




The sad phase is finally going, but it has left me with few after effects. I have become more lazy. There was a time when all my weekends were spent going out with friends, but now there is always sleep on my mind…


Forget sleep, otherwise also...there are times when Im doing absolutely nothing, I would prefer sitting idle looking at some random object, lost in trance rather than doing some activity or read or write… for example take yesterday only, my Masi along with my cousin have visited us from Chhattisgarh. I had to take him to the nearby mall, our plan was to watch a nice movie and then go for bowling but this couldn’t happen because of me and my typical laidback attitude. Poor boy, had no other choice but to stay at home and get bored. So the plan got postponed and we are going today hopefully…


So u see, this attitude of mine takes its toll and hampers many things and plans… including my updates on my dear D Diary… But better late than never, so today i would like to officially say that…


Dear D Diary,


Had there been no lethargy, there would have been some really interesting posts but BIG DEAL… the good news is that Im Back... ;)
I can’t promise not to be lazy anymore, but I can surely say that u would always be there in my priority check list ;)


Love ya...



Thursday, July 22, 2010

In search of my lost self...





Today, like any other day, alarm is shouting but I am lazy… I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to follow the so called routine of mine, my eyes are just not ready to open and see the harsh reality… but not everything u want is fulfilled, with this thought I get up and head towards the bathroom… little dozy little sleepy I look at myself in the bathroom mirror…

I lean forward to have a closer look at my face and a conversation from the previous day rings a bell….


Cut to the previous day…

R comes to meet me at my place …

R: Aur bata kaisi hai???
Me: Mai badhiya tu bata…
R: Bas ek dum mast….

(followed by the usual chit chats)

R: Hey, Kya hua hai??
Me: Kya?????
R: somethings wrong… has something happened?
Me: What??
R: U look upset, sad… u look tired…
Me: (pause) mmmmmm, yaa probably im sleepy dats y..
R: No, its not the usual sleepy face… its different… everything alrite??
Me: Yaaaaaaaa……. R u crazy??? Nothing serious… just chill
R: U cant lie to me… u look different and unhappy…everything good at work and home??
Me: yaaaaaa…. Its fine yaar…
R: ok…. anyway (and the talk continues)


Back to the present….

I lean forward to have a closer look at my face, trying to smile, trying all the possible expressions that I usually have… I ask myself… What is it??? Is there something really wrong with me like they say??? When was the last time I had my usual smile on??? Am I really tired??? If yes, what is it I am tired of?? Why is it that everything looks so fake??? Its not that all of them are bad… still I don’t like their presence, why???

Im tired, im bored, im irritated, this is not me… the anger, the irritation, the boredom, the lazyness, this is just not me…

The laughter, the giggles have disappeared, the craziness has disappeared, the passion has taken a back seat, the fun seems far away, the essence has gone…

I miss myself…

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Where am I gonna go...



I will stay in ur heart...
I will live in ur memories...
I will breathe with every breath of urs…
I will smile with every smile u show...

Where am I gonna go...where am I gonna go!!


Its u who rule my thoughts…
When I dream, I dream about u…
My songs dance on ur tunes…
My words are neither mine too…
Ur presence makes my heart glow…

Where am I gonna go… Where am I gonna go!!

My days and nights belong to u my dear…
When ur around I have no fear…
Every moment we spend together is safe deep inside…
In life if ever u miss me, just close ur eyes and I will be there…

Just look at me once...
I may not get a chance again…
Lemme hold u close...
And recall from where it all began…
My love for u will always grow…

Where am I gonna go… Where am I gonna go…!!
 

Monday, June 21, 2010

Kaash...


Yu to dekhe hain jaane kitne khwaab…
Yu to khuda se maangi hain khushiyaan behisaab…

Yu to khatm na hogi ye talaash…
Kyuki dil ke kisi na kisi kone mein phir bhi reh jaayega ek Kaash…


Kaash itna kar paau ki vaqt ko rok lu mai yahin…
Haathon se reth phisalne se pehle, in lamhon ko thoda aur jeelu mai abhi…

Vo jo mere apne hain, vo jo mere dost mere humraaz hain…
Kaash rakh lu unhe apna banakar, jab tak chal rahi meri saans hai….

Zindagi kabhi nirashaon ka saagar to kabhi khushiyon ki saugat ho..
Kaash sabke chehre par hasin bikher saku, mujhme vo baat ho…

Dhoop mein Tapti Dharti Tapti saari kaaynaat
Kaash kuchh aisa ho, Baadlon ki chaadar odhe jhoom ke aa jaaye bin mausam barsaat…

Is tez raftaar duniya mein, do kadam mere bhi hain
Apni pehchaan bana lu, apni manzil paa lu Kaash…
Kuchh aise hi sapne mere bhi hain…

Kaash hota ye dil mera aaina, to isme khud ko nihaar leti main…
Is chanchal mann ko padh kar, soorat ke sath apni seerat thodi aur sawaar leti main…

Paaya bahut hai, phir bhi lage jaise chhoot raha kuchh khaas hai…
Kaash ban jaye vo mera humsafar jise pane ki is dil ko kabse aas hai…

Dil har roz bunta hai sapnon ka taana baana…
Kaash aasmaan mein sitaaron ke tale, mil jaye koi chaand sa… beetne vaali ye raat hai…

Yu to dekhe hain jaane kitne khwaab..
Yu to khuda se maangi hain khushiyaan behisaab…

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

And Then It Rained...



The weather is driving me crazy…

Sitting inside the office, trying hard to complete these undone scripts, I just can’t concentrate…

What has happened to me today??? When everyone around is busy working, I am flying in an altogether different world. It can’t be like any other day…. It’s not boring and exhausting… I feel good, I feel rejuvenated, I told myself.

Just when I was deep into these thoughts, suddenly someone shouted, ‘hey, its raining’. My fingers on the keyboard stopped and I sneaked outside… Oh My, its beautiful, its actually pouring, the first rain of the season… I was thrilled.

It took me a while to believe that it’s actually raining. That’s when I got to know the reason of all that was happening to me since morning, my happiness had no end. No sun, trees enchanted by the cold wind, everything so green and pure. Mesmerized by the weather, it was really hard for me and im sure for everyone else around to do justice to the work we were indulged in… It was a pure bliss…. As the hours passed by and it was time to go home, I came out, looked at the blanket of clouds up there and said Welcome dear…

Weather has started showing its colors, its going to be beautiful I know… :)


Thursday, May 20, 2010

Do Re Mi


Today I am gonna start turning the pages of my life’s book.

Today I am gonna talk about my greatest passion ever... No No it isn’t to be the most beautiful woman in the world neither it is to own a shopping mall or something (See, ofcourse I think about these two options too, I mean which girl does not, but greatest passion??? Naaaah!!!)

What I am talking about is above all these materialistic things… It is my MUSIC, my singing…



I started singing at the age of 7… Apart from my family, one thing which has always been with me is my music, it never left me even for a second… :) Yaa, its my singing which keeps me going in life… Wanna know how???

  • In the middle of an exam, all nervous, I start singing (not once, not twice, I have noticed myself doing this many a times) :P
  • In the market with maa… when all I have to do is stare while maa is busy shopping… I start humming that too very loudly…Maa hates it but It happens unintentionally…
  • While talking to my friends… suddenly something clicks and I start singing… :)
  • I wake up in the morning, still in bed and I am singing…:)
  • Okh… this ones the funniest of all, while talking to someone (anyone), suddenly they say a word which has a song starting from it… it takes me not even a sec to figure out the song and yes…. U guessed it right, to hell with the talk, I start singing then and there…. Ask Bhaai, he is the biggest victim … and trust me he can even kill me for this…

Hahaha… in short “I live Music”. Few lines I would like to add here which would explain the true meaning of Music in my life…

When I sing the whole world holds a different meaning
When I sing my heart pumps out a special feeling
Beauty is all I see around…
No matter how strange it may sound…
Its love and only love that stays..
Life seems so colorful; there are no traces of any greys…

I have a song for almost every situation I am in…isn’t it exciting?? It is indeed…

Lemme tell u a little SECRET which ofcourse would not remain a secret any more, ‘It isn’t tough to reach me at all, isn’t tough to cheer me up on one of those sad days, all u need is a right approach… need I say anymore???’

Can’t really imagine myself without this talent I have been gifted by god… Can go on and on with this really but I think I should better stop here and keep my musical stories for the later posts...

THANK U NOTE – “First of all I would have to thank goddess Saraswati for gifting me with this beautiful talent and then I cannot thank enough to the two most beautiful people in my life, my Maa and Paa..(Lemme tell u, maa paa are incredible singers)..Yes people, now u know..Its in my blood!!! Then my high school music teacher, Ms Kavita, knowing that u sing good isn’t enough, exploring and realizing its importance is necessary and that realization, that self confidence came from her and last but not the least Ms Jaspreet, she has transformed a novice singer into a diamond… :)

 <3

Friday, May 14, 2010

Happy Birthday Doll...

To the one with the shiny eyes…
May in future you always rise….

To the one who lives life queen size…
May god bless u with all smiles n no cries…

To the one who is chirpy like a bird everyday…
U r definitely gonna get ur prince charming one day…

To the one who is every man’s dream…
U r getting younger day by day it seems…

To the one who has always been a fighter…
Baby, with ur presence u have made my life brighter…

To the one who is a fabulous daughter, loving mother and a crazy friend…
I wish all u get is happiness and tensions end…

How wonderful u r u have no clue…
Today I wish that all ur dreams come true…

To the one who is hot to handle…
I wish u a very happy birthday with a cake and some candles…



Happy Birthday Simi Limi...

Love u sweetheart... muuaah

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Maa

Vo din bachpan ke, humari atkheliyon par uska yun muskurana…
Vo ungli pakad kar un nanhe nanhe kadamon ko chalna sikhana…
Vo khane se door bhagne par uska peechhe peechhe daud lagana…
Aur roz zidd karne par pariyon ki kahani sunana…


Jo taqleef seh kar ek nayi zindagi ko is duniya me laaye…
Vo hai Maa…


Gar halki si kharonch bhi aaye to uska pal bhar mein ghabra jana...
Vo dard humein ho to uska chhup chhup kar aansu bahana…
Galati karne par uska khoob daant lagana…
Aur phir kuchh hi der mein gale lagakar pyaar jatana…


Jiski mamta ki chhaon mein din bhar ki thakaan mit jaye..
Vo hai Maa…


Har chhoti chhoti baat ko sehensheelta se samjhana…
Zindagi mein har achhe bure ka fark batana…
Vo hamare sabhi doston ke sath khud bhi dost ban jana…
Vo der raat ko padhte vaqt uska baar baar pyaar se sehlana…


Jo dost bankar sabhi mushkilon mein saath nibhaye…
Vo hai Maa…


Vo hamaare bhavishya ke liye dil mein kayin armaan sajana…
Hamari khwaishon ke aage, apni sabhi khushiyon ko bhool jana…
Hamare dil ki har baat bina kahe hi samajh jana…
Apni puri zindagi bas apne bachchon ke liye bitana..


Jiske pyaar ka kabhi koi mol na kar paye…
Vo hai Maa…



Love u Maa...

Happy Mother’s Day!!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Prologue...


Honestly, writing a BLOG never struck… Despite the fact that my demented mind is always juggling with so many random thoughts, mmmm I had never thought of penning any of them down…  But thanks to a few wonderful people in my life (would introduce them in detail later), bcoz of them and there constant alarms and spanks, that today I am here, all excited about D Diary…writing my very first post... Ta Da

No Confusions, No distractions… Countdown begins…

5…4….3…..2……1

So ya…. Hi all… A warm welcome to D zone, where you would find me playing with my mind and my words… mostly sharing my day to day thoughts, interests, experiences, encounters and well, disasters too…

OH MY GOD, a funny thought bubble just appeared rite above my head … so like I said, Im all set… J

All happy, all smiling… I finally start my journey in this Blogomaniac world… Hope to have a good time here…

NOTE: For those who know me, FUN GUARANTEED…and for those who don’t, nevermind…u have just got a chance!!!!

So….stay connected… <3